We've taken on a lot, and somehow managed to stay in tact. Living life now as a family of 4!

So Santa and Mrs Claus came to our house to visit Rudi! How did we get such a special visit, you might be wondering? Because of surrogacy, obviously! ;) One of the really neat things about being connected to another family the way we are is that there are lots more people who love Rudi and want to be part of his life. 2 of these people are George and Lil, Jay's parents. (Jay, in case you don't remember, is the husband of Tara, who carried Rudi for us) George and Lil are, much like Jay (I guess he got it somewhere ;), very kind and generous people and they have expressed great interest in Rudi and how he has come into the world. In particular, I feel a special kinship with Lil. She was also not able to have her own biological children. She married George and became step-mother to his children. Both of them understand that there are many ways to build a family, and family is not defined only by genetics. Jake and I both feel honored that they want to be part of Rudi's

I didn't go for a walk this morning. And it threw off my whole day. Boo urns. I know better. I've made this mistake before! And I've written about it! It doesn't matter if you're tired and don't feel like getting bundled up in the moment. GOT TO GET OUTSIDE!!!!!!!! Rudi's been throwing some curve-balls at night, as 4 month olds tend to do, so my usual strategy of going to bed at 10 to try to get a 4 hour chunk of sleep before he wakes up to eat is no longer fool-proof. Tomorrow we're going outside in the morning FOR SURE. 100 PERCENT. EVEN IF WE ARE UP ALL NIGHT. Now that I've said it to all of you, I have to follow through. That is all. Except Also: I'm sewing Christmas stockings. Relevant: I don't really know how to sew and I'm making it up as I go along. Pictures to follow.

Is it strange that I'm doing way more searching of other people's infertility stories now than before Rudi arrived? I think it is strange, and yet I'm compelled to dig and follow links and read stories of other women who are infertile. I was just looking around the interwebs on this very issue, when it hit me that this is kind of bizarre timing. We found a way to parenthood that circumnavigated my infertility. Why is it now important to me to find stories I identify with? It's possible this had something to do with the webseries on CBC called ' How to Buy a Baby '.  I watched this series a few weeks ago after seeing it advertised on facebook (good old facebook!) and I don't think I've ever been more surprised by something on TV in my life. First, it is so accurate. SOOOOOOOOOO accurate! It made me feel like someone got in my head during this whole infertility/ivf process somehow and recorded what was going on. I have never identified with anything mo